I have come to realize something about myself...
I don't always say what I am thinking, and I tend to think and "stay inside my head" a lot. Yes, I am a rather bold person, with a lot to say and I often do, but when I actually sit and think about it (no pun intended) I really don't every say what I really want or what is going on in this head of mine. Words are not my forte and I don't think people often want to hear what I have to say, so I keep it to myself. I am a dreamer, a practical one, but a dreamer nonetheless. I have these plans and ideas of grandeur, but they stay locked away. Though all of this processing and festering of thought, I have come to know myself a little bit more. For instance, I know what kind of man I want to marry, and what kind of wife I want to be, but I know that I don't want to get married any time soon, because I am not ready nor and am I selfless enough to put myself in the position of a serious relationship. Do I tell anyone this? No. Why should I? There is so much more swirling around up there, but putting it down on paper takes more time than my ever evolving thoughts will allow. I think that is a reason why I started this blog, so I can learn to finally say what I really want. The heart and mind are two very different things. Getting them to align is a long process. Adding the mouth, and courage to say it is on a whole new level.
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